One of my favorite books of the Bible is Esther. The verse that says
“If you don’t speak up at this very important time…But who knows?
Perhaps you were made queen for such a time as this?” in Esther
4:14 (emphasis added). That phrase “for such a time as this” always resonated in my heart. She was put into a position of authority and influence for a purpose- the deliverance and relief of the Jews. Many times I have wondered for what reason and purpose am I here?
“If you don’t speak up at this very important time…But who knows? Perhaps you were made queen for such a time as this? Esther 4:14
The topic of relationships has always been of interest to me. I almost
studied to become a Marriage & Family Therapist in college. Instead, I ended up with a Marketing degree, still fervently reading books on the topic of relationships and studying interpersonal communication. Yet head knowledge is different than heart transformation. God wanted the information to make the difficult journey from my brain to my soul.
I remember being at Hume Lake Christian Camps when the speaker asked
“What is keeping you from being ALL IN in your relationship with God?” Having recently been through a break-up, immediately the word “relationships” flashed across my heart and mind. It was the one area I didn’t want to surrender to God. I had a desire to be married and a timeline in which that should be accomplished (according to my limited, finite understanding). That critical epiphany was a pivotal moment that changed my life.
Years later, I can see the foreshadowing in that word. For all the countless bad dates, failed relationships and devestating heartbreaks God was preparing me for such a time as this!
Relationships are messy! Filled with disappointment, conflict and confusion. Yet we have a choice to let these seasons make us bitter or better. I want to share what I have learned, and continue to learn, to be a source of encouragement. You will find the real, vulnerable struggles of relationships here; the beautiful and the broken parts, the joys and the obstacles, the highs and the lows.
I’m confident that God took me through all of the experiences in order to share them with you and bring glory to His name. As it says in John 9:3 when Jesus healed the blind man, “This happened so the power of God could be seen.”
Without His pursuit, love and grace I would be hopeless. The best love story I have experienced is with the one who intentionally pursues me, deeply cherishes me, recklessly loves me and calls me “Beloved”, the one with my Creator, Redeemer and Savior- Jesus Christ.